Missed You

So, I went on a cruise over my first mother's day and didn't have Lincoln with me.

I was so sad.  

Lincoln is literally my little buddy.  Obviously the cruise was way more fun without him-seriously who would take a 4 month old on a cruise?  We had a great time, but I truly missed my little pal.  We have so much fun together and I love him with all my heart.

Being a mom is so different than I thought it was going to be-and it's so much better than what I thought.

Yes, the crying, the screaming, the poopy diapers, the anxiety over schedules and nap times and ear infections-

all TOTALLY hard and all TOTALLY worth it.

I love being a mom.  Thinking about the fact that God gave us this sweet little boy brings me to tears.

Yesterday he laughed while I was getting him dressed cause I hit a tickley area on his legs and I started

to cry.  He is so precious and straight from heaven.  

I cried on our way home from Orlando on Saturday thinking that I was going to be able to see him soon.  

I came home and picked him up out of bed and I cried.  

I held him and kissed him and...well, he woke up and he wasn't very happy I woke him, but I couldn't wait.  

I love to see him smile.  

I love his sweet blue eyes and his blonde hair that grew so much while I was gone. 

 I love his big belly and his big head.  I love that he loves the bath and that he loves to splash around.  

I love his legs and that they are so tickley.  

I love the way he looks at Brett.  

I love the way he looks at me.  

I love that he is a 24/7 full time job.  

I love that I hate to be away from him.  

I love that he is ours forever.  

I love that God made families eternal so that we will never, ever lose him.  

I love the sacrifice it takes to be a mother, it makes me love my mother even more. 

It hurts my heart when people say that they are just a mother, because being a mother is the greatest, hardest, most rewarding job that there is and I'm very proud to 

be a mother.